It’s probably one of the biggest things that stops people from doing a lot of things. Before I tell you what my biggest fear is I must say that I don’t care what all people think of me. I might get upset just as anyone may get if someone makes a comment or something ,but the only people that I truly care what they think about me are the few true friends I have, my boyfriend and my family. My biggest fear is that people see me the way I see myself. I have insecurities and just like any typical girl would I constantly say them to myself which really at the end of the day doesn’t help me. But it’s like I have a constant battle in my head. Recently I was told that ” if I would lose weight than I finally can look more like a woman and less like a man”. That type of thing said crushes me because here I am trying to be normal and I’m saying to myself that” apparently I’m a man and I’m ugly and fat and am I gaining weight?” and all these things run through my head. But another side of me is like ” This is crazy,you are not a man and people are just being mean”. But I think when people say stuff that you already say to yourself than it’s almost like it wasn’t all in your head and it’s true. I really need to start ignoring people but it’s hard when it’s people you care about. I need to start caring for myself emotionally and physically. Not for them though,for me.
JackieBeeStrong 